Hey there little buddy.

Hello audience. I bet I don't have an audience. Actually, that makes me much more comfortable about my blogging experience - nobody is watching, so I can BARE MY SOUL.

Anyway, this week I gave up smoking, which was a very good idea. I'm already feeling much better. I've also had a lot of songs stuck in my head for long periods of time, such as; the animal hospital theme tune, windowlicker, happy together (yes, again) and club tropicana. This week Steve said; it's like Christmas on my cock, Alex said; thats not asian, thats just curry sauce. Some other people probably said some other brilliant things that I am forgetting, but NEVER MIND.

Today I started to read John Pilger's 'New Rulers of the World' and it made me very upset. The more I read, the more I realise that the world is a sad, twisted place. What I am slowly beginning to understand is that everything we touch is tainted, and the only way to have any positive effect is through awareness. Unfortunately, unpleasant truths are hard to swallow, for all of us. Things are going to have to get a lot worse before the public become conscious of the skulls they are treading on.

And on that note, goodnight.

It's boring, don't read it.

Hello again. Today I am going to blog freely about everything which comes into my head, until I get distracted by something.

News: I'll start with my musings on erotica. We've been set a 2000 word story conforming to one particular genre in 'Writing Genre Fiction'. So I've been reading (in the hope to write) some 'quality' erotica. However easy that (writing it) might initially seem, I have been running into issues. The main one being that most erotic writing tends to cater to an incredibly niche market. The assumptions I had about my own open mindedness in sex are being questioned. There are some recurring themes; BDSM and a lot of casual sex with strangers - I was expecting that. What I was not expecting was incest, boot polishing fetishes, stalking and murder. Obviously, as in any genre, everyone has slightly different expectations and ideals in erotica. All I'm looking for is hot interesting characters having hot sex (give me chemistry! GIVE IT TO ME!) Hopefully I'm not alone. The virtues I can see in this are that the fantasy element works, and the conventions can serve as a skeleton for a story. Despite that, it is an incredibly diverse genre where anything goes, as long as it has the potential to arouse at least some of it's audience. Considering all of this, I'm hoping to develop characters as realistically and complexly as I can in 2000 words. Hopefully this will give the sex (and the story) some actual depth and originality. Wish me luck.

In other news, I've been reading some of John Pilger's work for an essay in journalism (actually, I should probably be reading it right now.) I have fallen in love with him. His ethics, his commitment to publishing the truth and the dedication in which he works are all incredible.

In extra other news, I've been treated to some of my favorite things lately. I have a few special friends to thank for incredible dinners (out and in) Chicago (with incredible seats) and Rocky Horror (ditto). Thank you again, you beautiful brilliant people.

LOVE

Goodbye.

*Shy wave*

I feel like I've come crawling back to this blog, and to writing in general. I seem to have just let my ideas bob about in the deep confused ocean (exhibit A - that's me - just forgot how to spell ocean, and EXHIBIT) Cor blimey, I'm beginning to worry myself with my own stupidity.

Well, I will start from the beginning, kind of. I've been getting way back into reading and I've been watching everything I can get my hands on. Dear God, I sound like a hermit. I have also been socialising.

Well, that is enough for now. I will be back tomorrow. I'm going to keep up this blogging business if it kills me.

Ta-ta